My Three times rule.

    I always try something I am not too sure of at least 3 times before I make up my mind not to like it. With stuff I like...I know from the 1st second :) Well, my big problem is I like or don´t like... friends have told me I should be more flexible - hubby darling thinks i am too radical - and a dear friend told me I see things in black and white, like a dog. Since everything has to be like-not like, good-bad, love-hate---with me; the 3 times rule works out great for the times I am undecided or in a ´grey´ area about something. It helped me trying out culturally different foods. It helped me when I meet new people and am undecided about them. It helped me many times in my life until now.
       Today I had the most uncomfortable experience....the MRI machine. I hope no one who is reading this has to ever go through it. I googled( yup! I google everything), read, talked to my doc and the nurse and in spite of everything it was a very ,very uncomfortable experience...one I am not neutral, undecided or in the gray about. I calmed myself about the bit about actually going into a tunnel like machine....it was Siemens , so felt kind of better. Then my head started racing around trying to remember if they make it in China. Could not remember (typical me-and my short term memory) Then I started picturing how sad it would be to die inside the MRI machine if it malfunctions...like a horrible c grade movie-revenge of the machines . I was told to lie on my tummy to be absolutely still and that the machine makes really loud noises, so was given ear plugs. Can u imagine my terror - now if the machine went berserk, I would not be seeing or hearing when it collapses on my poor back! I thought of all the beautiful things that I could. My meditation techniques finally were put to some use. 20 minutes later. I was told not to move, to maintain my position and now they will be injecting contrasting fluid through my arms. I was reallllllly looking forward to moving, stretching or walking a bit. My arms and shoulders were numb-even my face was! try holding one position for 20 min, without moving at all. Then I was put back in for further 10 minutes.  What torture!! The worst was that the stuff that they injected gave me a funny ammonia-ish taste and smell and I was afraid I would throw up inside . So I started pressing on this thing they had given me, in case something went wrong. Did they stop the machine? Let me take a breather? or puke? NO. The operator came in and told me not to move. Then he held my hand through it and kept telling me if the images are not ok, because I moved- they would have to redo the whole thing. That was enough for me to go into my ´meditative state¨ and bear the next 10 minutes.Apparently I play Nirvana songs in my head when I am in this state.
       It was all over and I kept asking if the image was ok--YES!!. This is one thing I would never apply my rule of 3 to. I am sure I hate it. The nurse later told me that the nauseous feeling I had because of the liquid was very normal. UHh...why did you not warn me? Thats that, done with and hope I never need to do it again!

That Wonderful feeling.....

    Everyone has...and I hope everyone will experience that wonderful....sometimes frightening, feeling of being in love. How is it- it always hits you when you least expect it? I am talking about love..not attraction, not lust, not ¨I was sure it was love¨ but that feeling you get maybe just once in your lifetime...when you meet that special someone. You know it´s special as the feeling is totally different from just a very strong infatuation or a strong attraction. It´s your soulmate- the one person who really completes you. The feeling you get when you are with that person is ; like you are finally home.
   There have been songs, ballets, stories, movies, ballads, wars waged over true love. The pain of being apart form your love is bearable and forgotten as soon as you see their face. All cultures recognize true love and the concept of a soulmate. The feeling that you are truly complete now. That you were born to meet and marry, to live your life together with your other half. The lucky ones who do find their soulmate I guess live happy marriages which never feel like there is ever any difference between the two bodies. That reading of minds that completeness the love and respect can only grow with years.
    Aaaah...love !!